Nur_Lindhal Islamic life木耳林答伊斯蘭生活圈

Islam or muslim is an appellation the people called me.When I know this religion it was five years ago.I didn't realize all the enviroment of islam in Taiwan.I got misunderstand.How long I spend to understand what the reality of islam is.It is wonderful life I never see.

I didn't said the place is an undeveloped islam.There're six majid here.Until now I visited four only.Sometimes I think it's not convenient about the trafic to those majid.It's not near main train station or mass rapid transit.I always search the map from internet.Every time I go to Chungli and Taichung mosque I have to change buses.Almost spend a lot of time  for waiting the bus.I have a dream.If I decide to buy my own house.I will build the complex like a mosque and apartment building behind train station. Insh Allah.Keep my hard job and save more money.I can feel fulled more energy for this goal.

When I thought a lot about my mate in future I felt so disquieted.Whatever he is rich or poor.I fear I can't be a good wife.So difficult I face my husband.Even we can talk a lot about happiness life in future.All the difficult he and I have to fight for together.I am not alone anymore.I always talk to myself those words.

I pray that he can graduate smoothly and apply the visa successfully.Everything I start to worry about.But it's not useful.Lindhal~you need to pray and make more Du'a.Keep going with  your islamic life even you can't stay with him.That's good answer and suggestion you really need.Remenber what you said.Whatever it's good or bad I still thanks for Allah guiding.When I consider more the reality all is getting becaming more difficult.Only two things I can do.Read the Qur'anand pray on the right time.

How do you feel happiness everyday?The answer is doing the right thing in your life.After work I can pray in my room.The best one I thought is learning reciting more Su'ra of  Qur'an with my husband.He could teach me each chapter and explain to me.We two have the same belief in our future.I couldn't ensure no discussion with him.But I knew we can understand each other easiler.

Thanks for Allah guiding.Whatever it's good or bad.I have to know it's a test to me from Allah.Just Say Bismillah before I do everything.I can feel peace.

等待一個人，真的是很困難．兩個人的相距遙遠，

長時間的考驗下，真是一大難關．是否是因為一個人孤獨而感到極度的不安嗎？

What is  the most important I need to do everyday?I thought it's writing my blog and read the news.Otherwise pray at the right time.That's good feeling I like.I could thanks for Allah guiding and giving.The sweet and nice one is gave by Allah.Hold lots of   gratitude to islam.

How could I forsake this such best belief in my life?Cherishing the love to create more good islamic enviroment in Taiwan is my dream.Certainly my wonderful dream is to build a majid behind Chunan train station.A stately and dignified mosque is stood at the noticeable place that everybody can see.Let them realize my belief is not the wrost one they knew from then mass media.

一般人都認為我皈依伊斯蘭是一種叛離的感覺，每當他們以著一種疑問的眼光或是語氣，來看待我時，我總覺得他們對伊斯蘭真的不夠了解．對我而言，伊斯蘭不是宗教信仰～是新生活的開始．我從來不會避諱跟友人談及我的伊斯蘭．

一種機緣．一種緣分．不要有任何理由解釋皈依的目的．因為那早就不是重要原因．每當有機會，就會帶著有人品嘗halal美食及中壢龍崗清真寺的模樣．因為不知而造成的誤會太多，希望他們會慢慢了解．我生活的目標是，過好生活，平順自然．一切都要感謝阿拉的指引，有昭一日，我也可以回饋伊斯蘭的賞賜．

Say Bismillah before I do everytrhing.And thanks for Allah guiding.

Insha allah

Fortune-telling is chinese tranditional culture.My father is the one of those people who believes forturn-telling said.He took our three children date of birth  to compute our destiny.My eldest brother will have a lot of achivement.And me be just a mortal one.My younger brother is as same as me.He followed the fortune teller said to name our three children' names.That's so interesting.Like my aunt changed her name and try to make more good lucky. They talked about previous world and future world transmigration.

Our muslim talked about future world too. Following the teaching from prophet Muhammad will be guided us to heaven.That's no query.

Happiness life is the most important everyone seek.How could I know the right time gaining my best life?No time limited.I still have to wait for my Mr. right.But I appreciated Allah guiding me to islam.That's the best I knew.Maybe it's not perfect that I didn't make my own family.Sometimes I think I could live alone.I have a job.Have enough money to buy the food.I won't tremble for my future.Actually it's not allow in human society.Nobody can't live in solitude.

I look so restless with anxiety.I couldn't subside my emotion.I saw a doctor before.He said I am too nervous about my unknown future.That's true.I always want to know and assure what will happen next second.Maybe I expect the remarkable achievement in my life.Like a movie~Wow!Rewind anytime if I like.Huh.It's so ridiculous with my thinking.Featureless background of the family I had.My features is not pretty.I don't know what I really need in my life.The need is not necessary for everybody.

想想我的家我的母親，那是十年之前的事。如果那天我跟媽媽一起到竹南運動公園打球，她就不會出車禍過世。直到現在那對我跟我的家人都是難以接受的事實，我寧可相信她還是在工作，還沒有回來。這一切怎麼這麼突然想起，在我看完某位姐妹文章後，穆聖敎我們要尊重要感謝的人第一位是母親，第二位也是母親，第三位還是母親，最後才是父親。

我常常在回想，母親教導我一切的事，都是要為了能在社會上立足。雖然她只能用打罵我們，來督促我們課業。我相信她有她的苦衷，畢竟我可以擁有現在的能力，是她的教導。當初想到這一切的改變是如此突然，讓我傻到忘記自己身在何處。每當我傷心時，我都會向她哭訴。希望她能跟我在一起，度過一切難關。我會跟她一樣嗎？為自己家人忙碌，最後得到是一場死亡車禍。我不能諒解這一切的不公平，但是我卻是希望她在死後，可以得到一切解脫。但我絕對不是說＂死＂是得到一切解脫的方法。

Alhaduliliah~I could know more muslim friends in Taiwan,the wonderful country I lived.Today I have to thanks for Sister Reham talked to me some good sentences she read first.After her talking I thought a lot of changing in my life.Forgive my last and look ahead my future.

When I reminisced all I suffeed.Some was good.Some was sad.But all I met I have to appreciate Allah SWT guiding.Those were trials Allah gave me.In the past Sister Lattefa.Maryem.Huda all people from Long Gong Mosque help me  tide over all the difficults even I try to give up my belief,islam.They make me gain more courage to fight for my life. I couldn't forget all their kind.

哪個女孩對自己的未來不是很期待，既是害怕又是恐慌。雖然對方互相關心，會感到些許的甜蜜。不過想到往後的日子，卻是無比的害怕。我也是其中一名，想到自己成為一個皈依的穆斯林。當然希望自己的另外一半是個虔誠的穆斯林，可以帶領著自己在伊斯蘭的道路上，永不脫離。要如何選擇自己的對象，怎麼可能像KHAIR一樣~利用同居方式了解彼此,甚至交往甚密。男女的一言一行，往往讓彼此產生情愫而脫離正道，要怎樣得到幸福的婚姻，是否真的很難？

如果跟異教徒生活在一起那是罪惡嗎?

　　我家族裡一共有三個宗教，一個是傳統的佛道教，一是基督教，而我是回教徒。在這個三種不同文化的生活下，我跟著我的父親及小弟之間，存著一種微妙的關係。父親同意我信仰伊斯蘭，不過不同意我戴上頭巾，他不想看到女兒帶著向阿婆的東西。父親同意小弟信仰基督教，不過不同意他堅持不吃拜拜過的東西跟不參加家族的聚會。這一切都讓我感受到孤單的痛苦。

Everyday I dream I looked so special.Not prtty but had a extraordinary life.

So ridiculous.

      Alhadullilah.I found more muslims' blog from Taiwan.That's great I could know more muslim here in my country.I won't feel so weak and alone without those company.Thanks for Allah guiiding.I could know more friend belong my side.I could image more muslim will be here in my country.

Insha allah.

    How could I change my life and get more happpiness life?Not ask from others provide me a good life.I think about my future life was not normal one.Sometime I dream if I will get married with a foreign guy.I hope he will be a muslim.So I could keep my islamic life completely.I won't discuss him because of his belief.Sometime I fear I would be like some other converted muslims leaving thier belief away.Maybe it would happen to me.I can't control it.

我要怎樣改變我的生活才能得到更多幸福?不要要求別人給我一個很好的生活。我想我的未來，應該不會像一般人一樣正常。有時我幻想著如果我可以跟一個外國人結婚。我希望他是一個穆斯林，我可以保留我完整伊斯蘭生活，我不會因宗教理念跟他有所爭吵。有時我害怕我會像其他某些皈依的穆斯林一樣遠離伊斯蘭信仰。也許它將會發生在我身上，我卻無法控制。

　　想想自己年近30歳，NusLindhal你層想過你想要過著怎樣的生活？我想要組成我自己的家，有份簡單固定的工作，跟先生一同陪培育我們的小孩．那樣的夢想對我說不知道是否是一種奢求，我要如何能擁有這樣的幸福？誰都沒有教過我，因為我知道自己的命運如此，並不是要怨恨！只能感謝Allah引領待我到達這個國境．我不是一個很強的人，我也不能像我母親那樣的能幹，我自己喜歡做的事是什麼，我真的了解嗎？你喜歡當護士嗎？每一天，我像一班人一樣質問自己的工作及人生．雖然說佳里人都表示護士是一份穩定收入不錯的工作．可是我一點也都不覺得，醫生真的想過要好好救人嗎？護士真的想要提供最好的照顧嗎？

　　有時，我只想結了婚，我可以為先生生下我們的小孩，做點小生意．那是我心目中最期望的生活，我不能像母親這樣能幹撐起家中的支柱，我的先生是家中的唯一．我了解夫妻雙方在宗教理念鄉　　　同，我們兩個的生活至少是美滿的．存點錢，蓋一棟我心目中的清真寺公寓，大夥都可以住在一起．這樣的伊斯蘭生活也是我最終的夢想，雖然不是很豪華不是很富有，大家凝聚在一起的力量，才是推動我在伊斯蘭的動力．每天早上的喚拜聲，告訴我每一天的新開始．

     What!Muslim..a muslim are you?Who could believe I converted to muslim in 2005?I want to be a good muslim.Finish those obligation what I have to do in islam.Do you query all the things why you need to do.I had been before.My family asked me before.What the real reason result me to became a muslim?The Khair said"even I didn't pray everyday.I didn't stop to drink the wine and prohibit to eat the favorite food.like pork or dead animal meat.I still be here"I am not kidding.All these question I have been asked by Khair.How could I explain to them?Maybe I could say all the teaching that allah guiding.Who could trust you?They would say "I still be here.Yup?"What is the future world?Do you see that before?"

    No fighting no discussion that kind of the future I want. I am a simple person.I need a job and earn my money for saving.My dream is building my own house.It could be like a small mosque.Like a apartment.My mulsim friends could live together.We just have our own place to pray and work.We won't be worry to lose our job and couldn't support our family.

Do you query what you could do everyday?I thought I get sick because I couldn't find my future.Just pray everyday.Everything before I do say some good words.I can't keep my good temper.I look so emotional.I told to myself I have to be patient it everyday.But it still happend to me.I ask myself why I can't do my good job and gain my happiness life.Why I have to pray from Allah.It's impossible.

just go to sleep.I hope everyday I wouldn't know the true.

    Everyday I ask myself what I need in my life.Get married or take a hard job.I couldn't get both together.My head nurse talked me she hope I could consider more others feeling.If I couldn't do well I would involve others job.She admired she treat me so strick.But she wanna me learn more.It's good for me.But I still can't take this such high prssure.I don't know what I felt now. feared I would hurt the patient I care.I would hurt my colleagues.Why?Because of my bad temper.I try to cover that with my tear.But it's not the right way resloving the problem.But I knew myself.What the real I am.I couldn't be like my mother.Just shout to anybody with my emotional temper.Everything I wanna control.But it's fair.How could I complain those disappointed to my family?But I did already.When I get crazy.

    When I calm down I could think more what I really need.I need the nurse job beside the hight salary.I like the feeling saving others' life.But I have no professtional skill to finish my dream.No~ you have.But you don't want to study and work hard.My family and the header try to remind me who I really am.What a smart girl is.I was not.Everyday I introspect what I do.Maybe the nervous enviroment make me going wrong way.When I wanna get angry I just pray for allah's  forgiving.