一般人都認為我皈依伊斯蘭是一種叛離的感覺，每當他們以著一種疑問的眼光或是語氣，來看待我時，我總覺得他們對伊斯蘭真的不夠了解．對我而言，伊斯蘭不是宗教信仰～是新生活的開始．我從來不會避諱跟友人談及我的伊斯蘭．
一種機緣．一種緣分．不要有任何理由解釋皈依的目的．因為那早就不是重要原因．每當有機會，就會帶著有人品嘗halal美食及中壢龍崗清真寺的模樣．因為不知而造成的誤會太多，希望他們會慢慢了解．我生活的目標是，過好生活，平順自然．一切都要感謝阿拉的指引，有昭一日，我也可以回饋伊斯蘭的賞賜．
Say Bismillah before I do everytrhing.And thanks for Allah guiding.
Insha allah
Fortune-telling is chinese tranditional culture.My father is the one of those people who believes forturn-telling said.He took our three children date of birth to compute our destiny.My eldest brother will have a lot of achivement.And me be just a mortal one.My younger brother is as same as me.He followed the fortune teller said to name our three children' names.That's so interesting.Like my aunt changed her name and try to make more good lucky. They talked about previous world and future world transmigration.
Our muslim talked about future world too. Following the teaching from prophet Muhammad will be guided us to heaven.That's no query.
Happiness life is the most important everyone seek.How could I know the right time gaining my best life?No time limited.I still have to wait for my Mr. right.But I appreciated Allah guiding me to islam.That's the best I knew.Maybe it's not perfect that I didn't make my own family.Sometimes I think I could live alone.I have a job.Have enough money to buy the food.I won't tremble for my future.Actually it's not allow in human society.Nobody can't live in solitude.
I look so restless with anxiety.I couldn't subside my emotion.I saw a doctor before.He said I am too nervous about my unknown future.That's true.I always want to know and assure what will happen next second.Maybe I expect the remarkable achievement in my life.Like a movie~Wow!Rewind anytime if I like.Huh.It's so ridiculous with my thinking.Featureless background of the family I had.My features is not pretty.I don't know what I really need in my life.The need is not necessary for everybody.
想想我的家我的母親，那是十年之前的事。如果那天我跟媽媽一起到竹南運動公園打球，她就不會出車禍過世。直到現在那對我跟我的家人都是難以接受的事實，我寧可相信她還是在工作，還沒有回來。這一切怎麼這麼突然想起，在我看完某位姐妹文章後，穆聖敎我們要尊重要感謝的人第一位是母親，第二位也是母親，第三位還是母親，最後才是父親。
我常常在回想，母親教導我一切的事，都是要為了能在社會上立足。雖然她只能用打罵我們，來督促我們課業。我相信她有她的苦衷，畢竟我可以擁有現在的能力，是她的教導。當初想到這一切的改變是如此突然，讓我傻到忘記自己身在何處。每當我傷心時，我都會向她哭訴。希望她能跟我在一起，度過一切難關。我會跟她一樣嗎？為自己家人忙碌，最後得到是一場死亡車禍。我不能諒解這一切的不公平，但是我卻是希望她在死後，可以得到一切解脫。但我絕對不是說＂死＂是得到一切解脫的方法。
Alhaduliliah~I could know more muslim friends in Taiwan,the wonderful country I lived.Today I have to thanks for Sister Reham talked to me some good sentences she read first.After her talking I thought a lot of changing in my life.Forgive my last and look ahead my future.
When I reminisced all I suffeed.Some was good.Some was sad.But all I met I have to appreciate Allah SWT guiding.Those were trials Allah gave me.In the past Sister Lattefa.Maryem.Huda all people from Long Gong Mosque help me tide over all the difficults even I try to give up my belief,islam.They make me gain more courage to fight for my life. I couldn't forget all their kind.
哪個女孩對自己的未來不是很期待，既是害怕又是恐慌。雖然對方互相關心，會感到些許的甜蜜。不過想到往後的日子，卻是無比的害怕。我也是其中一名，想到自己成為一個皈依的穆斯林。當然希望自己的另外一半是個虔誠的穆斯林，可以帶領著自己在伊斯蘭的道路上，永不脫離。要如何選擇自己的對象，怎麼可能像KHAIR一樣~利用同居方式了解彼此,甚至交往甚密。男女的一言一行，往往讓彼此產生情愫而脫離正道，要怎樣得到幸福的婚姻，是否真的很難？
如果跟異教徒生活在一起那是罪惡嗎?
我家族裡一共有三個宗教，一個是傳統的佛道教，一是基督教，而我是回教徒。在這個三種不同文化的生活下，我跟著我的父親及小弟之間，存著一種微妙的關係。父親同意我信仰伊斯蘭，不過不同意我戴上頭巾，他不想看到女兒帶著向阿婆的東西。父親同意小弟信仰基督教，不過不同意他堅持不吃拜拜過的東西跟不參加家族的聚會。這一切都讓我感受到孤單的痛苦。
Everyday I dream I looked so special.Not prtty but had a extraordinary life.
So ridiculous.
Alhadullilah.I found more muslims' blog from Taiwan.That's great I could know more muslim here in my country.I won't feel so weak and alone without those company.Thanks for Allah guiiding.I could know more friend belong my side.I could image more muslim will be here in my country.
Insha allah.
How could I change my life and get more happpiness life?Not ask from others provide me a good life.I think about my future life was not normal one.Sometime I dream if I will get married with a foreign guy.I hope he will be a muslim.So I could keep my islamic life completely.I won't discuss him because of his belief.Sometime I fear I would be like some other converted muslims leaving thier belief away.Maybe it would happen to me.I can't control it.
我要怎樣改變我的生活才能得到更多幸福?不要要求別人給我一個很好的生活。我想我的未來，應該不會像一般人一樣正常。有時我幻想著如果我可以跟一個外國人結婚。我希望他是一個穆斯林，我可以保留我完整伊斯蘭生活，我不會因宗教理念跟他有所爭吵。有時我害怕我會像其他某些皈依的穆斯林一樣遠離伊斯蘭信仰。也許它將會發生在我身上，我卻無法控制。
